Our relationship with food can be tricky. What many may not know is that I do struggle, almost daily, to not indulge into temptations. However, I want to make the choice to nourish my body to set an example and provide my body with best that I can. I strongly believe that our daily food choices can be a powerful tool in our health arsenal -- what we choose to consume everyday will either hurt us or help us. That also goes for what we listen to, what we watch, and what we fuel with. I am far from perfect. I am a work in progress. I have fallen, failed, and lost; however, I choose to keep trying everyday because I know what it feels like when I allow myself to continuously make bad choices.
I started a food journal recently because I wanted to recheck myself with where I need to improve. I am strategizing with a qualified nutritionist at On Pace Wellness to discuss my blood work, inbody scans (both from Regenics), family history, and food journal to see where are the areas I can improve, because I had fallen into a very dark place in my life in 2020. I am still digging myself out of that dark place.
Two years ago that dark place began taking a huge toll on me physically, mentally, and emotionally. In a span of less than a year starting at the end of 2019, I left a toxic work environment, I left a toxic narcissistic relationship, I was attacked by a dog sending me to the ER, and then the pandemic hit. I lost my business, I lost my income, I lost my purpose and worst of all, my Max and Bruno began to lose their health. I was dipping into my savings for months... My health dwindled. My sense of will dwindled. And then I had a serious bone injury. In January 2021, I had been diagnosed with a bucket handle meniscus tear leaving me in excruciating pain to walk and with no outlook of running. It might have been collectively the darkest year of my life that compounded into a level that left me not wanting to see another day. I fell into a downward spiral seeking food and other substances to fill the dark void I had inside me. The only thing I could think at that time: what is the point anymore. I look back at that year still in pain, fear, and bewilderment. It was a very scary to not see a point in waking up the next day. After losing Max and Bruno who had been my whole world right before the holidays, I did not want to feel this darkness anymore and began making some serious changes.
Mental health truly is what holds our spirit together. If there is someone hurting in your life, please do not give up on them. You might be the only reason they are alive. If you are the one hurting: please know you are not alone. You matter. There is hope as much as one might hates to hear those exact words when you are in that dark place. Now in 2022, my spirit is healing and wiser as I continue to work on leaving behind those demons. They are there and remind me everyday they want to re-enter into my life, but here is my pledge to myself: I am a work in progress and I am working on forward progress. Thank you for reading and being a part of my community from the bottom of my heart.
5/11 Wed -136.2
50 - 2 beets chews, 1 turmeric chew by
HumanN200 - salted mixed nuts
100 - 2 egg whites, half egg yolk
50 - electrolytes (2L)
200 - salted mixed nuts
200 - pico de gallo with fresh lime
400 - wheat bread with almond butter
200 - milk chocolate (3)
+ 4L of Water Total
+ 2700 Calories Total
5/12 Thu - 135.2
50 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
100 - 1 Vital4U energy (blue), 2 egg whites
50 - 2 beets chews, 1 turmeric chew
0 - Vital4U supps
250 - 1 slice of chicken jalapeño pizza
200 -salted mixed nuts
50 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
510- Marsala Chicken
QuickFresh (51g protein, 19g protein)
200 - whole grain chips
200 - unsalted trail mix
500 - Chicken Chop Suey
QuickFresh (42g protein, 23g fat)
400 - wheat bread with almond butter
200 - milk chocolate (3)
** 2hr workout
** 46 min ride + strength
+ 4L of Water Total
+ 2800 Calories Total
5/13 Fri - 136.0
100 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
100 - 1 Vital4U energy (blue), 2 egg whites
50 - 2 beets chews, 1 turmeric chew
0 - Vital4U 11 pill packet
430 - Meadow Breakfast
QuickFresh (33g protein, 21g fat)
200 - salted mixed nuts
100 - electrolytes (3L)
250 - protein snack
900 - 2 servings of homemade lasagna with salad, no dressing
200 - milk chocolate (3)
400 - air popped popcorn
** 7mi trail run
~5L of Water Total
~2800 Calories Total
5/14 Sat - 136.2
100 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
100 - 1 Vital4U energy (blue), 2 egg whites
50 - 2 beets chews
0 - Vital4U 11 pill packet
100 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
250 - protein snack
400 - quinoa chips and homemade salsa
200 - chocolate s’mores
300 - 2 servings of cheese crackers
300 - extra serving meat
**10mi hilly run
**2mi walk + yoga
~5L of Water Total
~3000 Calories Total
5/15 Sun - 138.2
50 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
100 - 2 beets chews, 1 Vital4U energy (blue)
0 - Vital4U supps
400 - Zucchini Mushroom Frittata Quickfresh meal
200 - eatIQ bar
250 - trail mix and blueberries
50 - Vital4U electrolytes (2L)
500 - Turkey Basquaise Quickfresh meal
400 - wheat bread and peanut butter
400 - popcorn
50 - Vital4U electrolytes (1L)
200 - frozen grapes
200 - milk chocolate (3)
100 - mango
**5K race
**1hr workout + yoga
~5L of water
~2800 Calories
5/16 - 137.6
100 - vital supps, energy + electrolytes (2L)
400 - yogurt + trail mix
600 - Caribbean jerk chicken + salad
500 Mango + bread with almond butter
300 - protein snack, electrolytes (2L)
200 - eatIQ bar on trail
100 - electrolytes, sparkling water
400 - campechana
100 - honey stinger
600 - popcorn, chocolate (3)
**9mi trail run + yoga
~4L of water
~3300 Calories
5/17 - 137.0
100 - vital supps, energy + electrolytes (2L)
400 - 2 egg whites, trail mix + biltong
500 - Chicken Cordon Bleu QuickFresh
400 - wheat bread, almond butter
300 - protein snack, electrolytes (2L)
500 - Chicken Caprese salad (55g protein, 28g fat)
400 - popcorn
300 - milk chocolate (4)
**3mi run with Buster
**1hr workout + PT
~5L of water
~2900 Calories
2022 Race Results:
1/16 - Rose Bowl Half - 1:39
2/13 - Boney Mountain Half - 2:21 (2700' gain)
2/27 - Ventura Half - 1:33
3/12 - Pasadena 5K - 1st FOA
3/20 - Los Angeles Marathon - 3:27
3/27 - Reaching For Cure Half - 2:16 (with dad)
4/18 - Boston Marathon - 3:27
5/1 - OC Half - 1:40
5/7 - Yosemite Half - 1:38
5/15 - Herbalife 5K
6/5 - Mountains to Beach Half
... to be continued.
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